MY PAST SCARES ME

#and how her thoughts flowed when she had to mould into someone else @ 16

My past scares me,

Not that I did anything wrong...

or take the breath out of a man,

nor did I leave a bloodtrail,

or my fingerprint on a corpse...

Not that I subdued my neighbour,

nor take advantage of him,

nor did I cheat on anyone,

or claim undeserved bread...

Neither did I fear anyone,

or cheated in an exam,

Nor was I a cause of fear,

or of a dull austerity

Neither was life a burden,

Or a heavy cross to bear,

Nor did I doubt myself,

Or distrust myself in a crisis.

No, I didn't doubt my sanctity,

Or swear on anyone,

But my past scares me...

For those things I was not back then...

But is now.

My past scares me.....

MY WOES

#overtures of a 12 year old during her over-sensitive insecure times

Tears running down my cheeks

Those no one seeks...

Crying out in pain,

My tears may cause a rain,

I want my feeling expressed,

I don't want them supressed

Hating me-all?

Or only the tall?

Has no one got worry

At blasting at me with furry?

Forgetting me in the hurry?

Better you burry

I hate you-the one in my right,

I hate even your sight,

Why though you made me cry,

With you, my eyes never dry

I'll make you fry

And you'll never come for a try

No one ought to be with me

Never good,they'll be

I yearn for you

You would come too

Not for long,I know

That leaves me a great vow.