MY PAST SCARES ME

#and how her thoughts flowed when she had to mould into someone else @ 16

My past scares me,

Not that I did anything wrong...

or take the breath out of a man,

nor did I leave a bloodtrail,

or my fingerprint on a corpse...

Not that I subdued my neighbour,

nor take advantage of him,

nor did I cheat on anyone,

or claim undeserved bread...

Neither did I fear anyone,

or cheated in an exam,

Nor was I a cause of fear,

or of a dull austerity

Neither was life a burden,

Or a heavy cross to bear,

Nor did I doubt myself,

Or distrust myself in a crisis.

No, I didn't doubt my sanctity,

Or swear on anyone,

But my past scares me...

For those things I was not back then...

But is now.

My past scares me.....